Finally im free! At least i think i am... cant stand being all nice in front of u lot anymore... and its not like i didnt warn u people... im 2 yrs old for a reason... im nothing like an adult so ont expect anything from me... and only now the message is finally getting through... ur all angry at me and somehow im actually glad u are... id rather u say like bad stuff about me and about how childish i can be rather than expecting me to act all nice and proper... Told you people many times but did anyone listen? No~

Now im telling you again... i just want to be myself. Report me to whoever u want i dont give a shit. All these years comparing us... it didnt only hurt the person getting all the negative comments you know... its like u guys only like me coz im acting this way... because im forced to be this nice person in order to not suffer what the other half is going through.

People ask me why do i still trust her... why i still believed in her... really i kinda envy her. Yea she gets all that crap from the old ones but still she can shout and scold people and i dont know act childish and all... only problem is... people cant accept the way she is... and i understand now why she lies to herself... even to others because she wants to be accepted... Ok yaya so im blessed and all that crap and im just throwing it away... For those of you who read this and somehow wants to tell me that im crazy... my answer to you is... yea i know. To those who want to give me lectures and all... dont bother. And to those who want to go tell others what i just typed to rebel against adults to get me into trouble... have fun. =D

*jumps around in circles*


well since i got comments on my facebook status asking about wat happen and all... i gave them the link to my blog. this post is to just tell anyone who comes... this blog is mine and i write anything i want... so if u dont like the way i type and stuff especially if ur an adult... yea u can click the lil red x button at the top right hand corner of ur page. thank you for visiting =3
love u guys lods =D


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE OLD PEOPLE! FUCKING ADULTS THINK THEY CAN DO WATEVER THEY WANT! YEA THEY CAN GO TO HELL ALSO!

Today right after the painting thingy in ang mo kio pri... i went to subway to take away dinner for me and clare... then i took the bus home... the bus was quite empty at first so i put the food and drinks on the seat next to me... n slowly got more people right... until like left the seat i put the food on and the one infront. THERES AN EMPTY SEAT IN FRONT RIGHT... this old fag had to like come then he purposely dont wan sit there.. he must come put his huge butt on my food before i could even take it away. and its not like he cant see coz its quite alot like 2 drinks and 2 sandwich and cookies all over the chair right ..... that fucker just cant wait for me to take it away or even sit in the front seat... fucking ass he think he adult means can sit on peoples things ar... GO TO HELL LA! he go step on the pai pai food along the streets see how he die ar. i bet his leg will rot all the way up to his smelly butt...

so right i went home and started cursing that ass... and all other gross adults... and my mum got so angry say like she also adult my grandma also adult so i wan them die la... wth ya... now i know right... in reality canot say anything canot scold anyone... must act like some idiot... BUT HERE I DONT CARE LA! FUCK ALL U ADULTS! now i know why i like the internet so much... i can be myself...


Gosh IM DONE!
ALL 3 FINAL PIECES FINISHED!
At least i consider them finish - - ... i know still have lods of touch ups to do but still~! XD ... riight. Ok so i've joined this TinierMe thingy that Aya neesan introduced... and its like cuter cute! All the clothes are like lolita and gothic thingys OH GOD~! LOL and they have this Diary thingy which is like a blog so yea... i haven been updating this one LOL...

OK things left to do~
- Sketches! Lods of them!
- An extra piece for figure drawing if i can rush
- collect my guts see the stupid chandra on monday
- pack house

OHOH MUMMY BOUGHT US NEW BEDS~! So yea lods to do around the house... we have new cupboards too! And clare got a new study table... I dont have one =( COZ I DONT STUDY LOLOLOL... riight - - so yea we have to take EVERYTHING out of the room... which is seriously crazy... its like my room exploded... and i realised... I GOT ALOT OF STUFF! - -... LOL i threw alot of papers away. Mostly from nafa... i hate reading... BUT BUT BUT i found all the fanfics i printed out years ago~! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE~! Can slowly read them during hols =3


Its really scary huh?
Its so hard to find a friend... but so easy to lose that person.

Felt really useless today when you were so upset and i didnt even know how to make you feel better... i cant ask you to not be sad cause i know its impossible... and i cant be random and make jokes at this time to make you laugh cause it wont work... but seriously... he shouldnt go climb mountains for no reason... >< ...
Whatever it is... Aya neesan be sad... cry everything out... just stop thinking of joining him in heaven. Didnt know if you were joking or not... but it really freaked me out...call me selfish but im not gonna lose you coz of his death... (yea who am i to advice people on not killing themselves...) but still!

GO WATCH THAT VIDEO I MADE FOR YOU =D
it helps! i hope...
and if you ever need to talk... you know we'll be here^^


Yet again... im running away...
I guess today im throwing everything away by not going to that critic session in school... that black dude (no offence, i just dont know how to spell ur name) will surely kill me like tomorrow or someday soon. Which is why i actually planned to suicide last night... was a really good plan i had my mind set on for like about a week... until i talked to some people about it. LOL got slapped pish... the conversations i got from everyone was almost all the same and kinda predictable... but really got to thank you guys... and thanks ah yi for letting me sleepover. *hugs*

Gosh i didnt wanna post anything related to reality coz it sucks but well... i cant stay in game life forever huh... After all the crap that was going on i guess im finally recovering now... very slowly but still. This sem was really a disaster in school.. skipped most of my classes... no mood to paint anything... neither can i paint anything properly. At first i thought it was coz im new to oil painting... but during the critic we had with our teachers... Zhang lao shi said that the pieces i did at the beginning were like rubbish i can throw them away. Then he pointed to my recent work and said that i improve like alot alot alot. Ok he didnt say he made actions LOL hes really cute. But when i looked at it... i didnt think that i improved at all... i know i could get that standard in my paintings anytime and that piece wasnt even very nice... its just that at the start of this sem i was... really off. Nothing i did came out right. I guess... this improvement.. is just me recovering.

I realise that going through all that was maybe a good thing... I found out alot... oh god now i know who my true friends are... and i realised that alot of people cared. From the europe trip until now... im really grateful for everyones concern. People whom i wasnt even close with came to talk to me... they were there for me... and of course ah yi and ida who were there since well the start i guess... thank you ne everyone. For this critic session alone... i know theres no point in thanking anyone coz i didnt actually turn up even after everything but i have to... thank you^^.

OK! Time to get back up! Final project submissions are like... weeks away? This sem i really have no mood to do any work at all... i messed up big time. But still... im gonna start working really hard now just to get through... then in the next sem i'll start all over and get my grades back. Ok at least for the painting and drawing classes. IA i give up LOL... until now i have no idea wats going on. History... i guess i can cope... BUT PRESENTATION T_T pish... argh watever.

Things to do(omg so many):
Drawing class - space
Drawing class - Chinese ink, white acrylic, pastel, charcoal painting.
Drawing class - Above part II LOL
Digiart - stop motion
IA - essay (ah... fuck)
History - .... ok next!
W.Painting - bottles - -
W.painting - the backgrounds for all my other pieces.
Figure drawing - self portrait
Figure drawing - nude sketches....whyT_T
100 sketches for jian yao
AND ALL THE FINAL PROJECTS =D
ok im screwed...

still...
WEEEEEEEEE JIA YOU JIA YOU <3


Chu~! IM GOING TO VIETNAM!!
*Jumps around* okok... Long story on why i wanna go there but yea... mummy said that maybe we could go over for a couple of days during our year end vacation and be back in time to celebrate Clares bday~ WAAKAKAKAKAKA...
Hoho... speaking about Clare... SHE ATE A COCKROACH TODAY! @_@ ok fine so she didnt swallow it but still... it was in her mouth... she thought it tasted weird so she took it out LOL...THE HORROR! and she almost finished her udon too... (clare will never order that creamy udon ever again for the rest of her life) LOL right after that she started spamming the news to her frens /e5 poor girl... well it got us free ice cream =D
Sho yummy ><...

LOL we got addicted to Waraku so we're in Central almost every weekend - -... we went to the really cute shop again coz mummy wanted to decorate her laptop with ze pretty lil things we stuck to our phones... LOL spend another 40 bucks- - AND I REDECORATED MY PHONE ^^ keke... its sho pink now =P
TADA!!!


Oh god i love the frills~!

Chu~! we bought shoes too! Coz like my boots are seriously hard to wear and to take off so yea... cant wear them everywhere...


WAKAKKA SHO CUTE~! Had a pink one too but i cant buy 3 pairs T_T... pish right then...BACK TO PLAYING POKEMON! XP
Chao!