Weeeeeeeeee mummys back from japan safe and sound!!! THANK YOU GOD!!! zzz i've been worrying the whole week! but well she had fun^^ and she bought lods of stuff! YAY SHE BOUGHT ME ZE STITCHY T SHIRT!!! haha she saw some girl wearing it then she ask Ajiki to go chase after the person to ask where she bought it. LOL in the end my mums walking speed is faster then his handicap scooter thingy LOL... but well she cant speak jap so yea still have to wait for him... WAKAKKA and she bought the royce chocolate thingy too! keke i can use it to tempt jie jie ^^ SHE WOVES IT! *waves it infront of her* kimmy evil /gg .... OHOH MUMMY BOUGHT STITCHY COOKIES TOO!!! GAHHHHH SUPER CUTE!!! ok im gonna faint... too happy... lol 2nd night... see how long this can last WAKAKAKA!!!




WEEEE FINALLY ONE PAINTING!!!
(zzz i dont know why the picture is like that... something wrong with my camera? i tried to photoshop it to make it look like the actual thingy but failed so hack la...)
I saw this postcard watercolour paper thingy in art friend and it was so so cute that i had to buy it WAKAKAKAKA!!! and when i saw this picture Josh took i just had the feeling to paint it. FINALLY!!! i thought i would never start painting since its hols - - ... took around 4-5hours on this watercolour piece... its really tiny but like super cute la WAKAKAKAKA!!! well it gets my mind off some stuff at least... THANKS JOSH FOR TAKING ZE PICTURE AND THANKS DIANE FOR erm... MAKING HIM TAKE THAT PICTURE? WAKAKAKA!!!





Really dont understand why is it so hard for me to tell you how much i love you when i can just say it so easily to everyone else... why is it so hard for me to talk to you? i never really understood you... never knew what ur life was like... hack i dont even know whats ur job... and you probably never understood me... we can never communicate properly... and thats why i gave up going out or spending time with you coz we'll just end up in an arguement... sad really... i always knew you cared but you never knew how to express your feelings... i was unhappy coz u said u didnt love mummy anymore... coz u didnt do anything to save the marriage... you know... sometimes you just make me hate you so much... then after that you'll do something so nice and i'll feel so guilty... you could never control me... and i took advantage of that... i admit im the worst kind of child any parent can have yea... sorry bout that... but thanks... for accepting me... i really lost track of time tonight... thanks for waking up just to come pick me up... thanks for finding me... i love you papa... i just hope one day i can say this to you in person like i used to when i was just a kid... really wish i can go back to the time when i was able to write big i love you signs and stick them all around the house and you wont think im crazy....

Lol... you probably wont see this message anyway... but yea just really needed to tell you how much i love you.
Love you papa^^ alot alot....


Elaine.


Ok i tried putting each person with an element... this is only to me yea... i got bored... zzz i suck at using words...

Fire... His passion for art is very strong... so is his personality and his believes... a very interesting person... will never change himself or see things in the view of another person... He cares but doesnt know how to show it... in a way hurting others... hurting the people who cares for him... hes like this flame... people who goes too close gets hurt... but they would still go towards it...

Earth... Calm and collected... very in control of his emotions... very logical... Appears to be very strong... He cared alot... too much even... it started hurting... crumbling inside... yet he kept everything and smiled to not make us worry... until he couldnt take it... like an earthquake... sudden release of everything... which changed him... coz it was too much to take...

Water... Shes like water... gentle and elegant...an extremist... can be very still yet at times very dramatic... Shes logical but at times her emotions took over... She has very strong opinion... yet shes able to accept other views... liquid is between gas and solid... guess she balanced out... however this time her emotions flowed too deep...

Air... Lets see... i can never control my emotions... i do whatever i want... never cared about what people thought of me... i follow my emotions... hate logic... never know where im going... never thinking ahead... never gonna change for nobody... probably thats my biggest fault... i did and said things without thinking... i've hurt my friends now i realise it... for that i apologise... although its probably of no use...

When the 4 elements come together... KABOOM!!!
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Fireworks yea!!!

(ok now i know why people like the do the dots thingy in emails LOL quite fun...)

Call me stupid but i still wanna believe in this friendship... =D


I dont want to be told to grow up~!
And i dont wanna change i just wanna have fun^^
I dont wanna be told to grow up~!
And i dont wanna change...
So u beta give up!
I dont wanna be told to grow up~!
And i dont wanna change i just wanna have fun...
I dont wanna be told to grow up~!
And i dont wanna change...
So u better give up!
Cause im not gonna change...
I dont wanna grow up!


Woot~! I love this song~!


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