Its really scary huh?
Its so hard to find a friend... but so easy to lose that person.

Felt really useless today when you were so upset and i didnt even know how to make you feel better... i cant ask you to not be sad cause i know its impossible... and i cant be random and make jokes at this time to make you laugh cause it wont work... but seriously... he shouldnt go climb mountains for no reason... >< ...
Whatever it is... Aya neesan be sad... cry everything out... just stop thinking of joining him in heaven. Didnt know if you were joking or not... but it really freaked me out...call me selfish but im not gonna lose you coz of his death... (yea who am i to advice people on not killing themselves...) but still!

GO WATCH THAT VIDEO I MADE FOR YOU =D
it helps! i hope...
and if you ever need to talk... you know we'll be here^^


Yet again... im running away...
I guess today im throwing everything away by not going to that critic session in school... that black dude (no offence, i just dont know how to spell ur name) will surely kill me like tomorrow or someday soon. Which is why i actually planned to suicide last night... was a really good plan i had my mind set on for like about a week... until i talked to some people about it. LOL got slapped pish... the conversations i got from everyone was almost all the same and kinda predictable... but really got to thank you guys... and thanks ah yi for letting me sleepover. *hugs*

Gosh i didnt wanna post anything related to reality coz it sucks but well... i cant stay in game life forever huh... After all the crap that was going on i guess im finally recovering now... very slowly but still. This sem was really a disaster in school.. skipped most of my classes... no mood to paint anything... neither can i paint anything properly. At first i thought it was coz im new to oil painting... but during the critic we had with our teachers... Zhang lao shi said that the pieces i did at the beginning were like rubbish i can throw them away. Then he pointed to my recent work and said that i improve like alot alot alot. Ok he didnt say he made actions LOL hes really cute. But when i looked at it... i didnt think that i improved at all... i know i could get that standard in my paintings anytime and that piece wasnt even very nice... its just that at the start of this sem i was... really off. Nothing i did came out right. I guess... this improvement.. is just me recovering.

I realise that going through all that was maybe a good thing... I found out alot... oh god now i know who my true friends are... and i realised that alot of people cared. From the europe trip until now... im really grateful for everyones concern. People whom i wasnt even close with came to talk to me... they were there for me... and of course ah yi and ida who were there since well the start i guess... thank you ne everyone. For this critic session alone... i know theres no point in thanking anyone coz i didnt actually turn up even after everything but i have to... thank you^^.

OK! Time to get back up! Final project submissions are like... weeks away? This sem i really have no mood to do any work at all... i messed up big time. But still... im gonna start working really hard now just to get through... then in the next sem i'll start all over and get my grades back. Ok at least for the painting and drawing classes. IA i give up LOL... until now i have no idea wats going on. History... i guess i can cope... BUT PRESENTATION T_T pish... argh watever.

Things to do(omg so many):
Drawing class - space
Drawing class - Chinese ink, white acrylic, pastel, charcoal painting.
Drawing class - Above part II LOL
Digiart - stop motion
IA - essay (ah... fuck)
History - .... ok next!
W.Painting - bottles - -
W.painting - the backgrounds for all my other pieces.
Figure drawing - self portrait
Figure drawing - nude sketches....whyT_T
100 sketches for jian yao
AND ALL THE FINAL PROJECTS =D
ok im screwed...

still...
WEEEEEEEEE JIA YOU JIA YOU <3


Chu~! IM GOING TO VIETNAM!!
*Jumps around* okok... Long story on why i wanna go there but yea... mummy said that maybe we could go over for a couple of days during our year end vacation and be back in time to celebrate Clares bday~ WAAKAKAKAKAKA...
Hoho... speaking about Clare... SHE ATE A COCKROACH TODAY! @_@ ok fine so she didnt swallow it but still... it was in her mouth... she thought it tasted weird so she took it out LOL...THE HORROR! and she almost finished her udon too... (clare will never order that creamy udon ever again for the rest of her life) LOL right after that she started spamming the news to her frens /e5 poor girl... well it got us free ice cream =D
Sho yummy ><...

LOL we got addicted to Waraku so we're in Central almost every weekend - -... we went to the really cute shop again coz mummy wanted to decorate her laptop with ze pretty lil things we stuck to our phones... LOL spend another 40 bucks- - AND I REDECORATED MY PHONE ^^ keke... its sho pink now =P
TADA!!!


Oh god i love the frills~!

Chu~! we bought shoes too! Coz like my boots are seriously hard to wear and to take off so yea... cant wear them everywhere...


WAKAKKA SHO CUTE~! Had a pink one too but i cant buy 3 pairs T_T... pish right then...BACK TO PLAYING POKEMON! XP
Chao!